Don't Close Your Eyes Chapter Eleven
Liz woke up from her nap a few hours later. She was still wrapped up in the covers but Zac was gone from beneath her and she frowned some. Getting up she reached for her clothes and put them back on.
"Zac," she called out walking around the house. Not finding him she frowned as she soon sat on the stairs. He had, had sex with her and just left. He hadn't even woken her up to tell her he was leaving. A wham bam thank you ma'am was all she was to him anymore it seemed now.
Frowning she ran a hand through her hair. She hadn't expected this from him. She had thought he was better than this but it seemed she was wrong. He had changed since they broke up obviously. She blamed Fiona for the change in him. What else could have changed him?
Standing from the stairs she walked back to her couch and pulled her legs to her chest. Closing her eyes she sighed. Besides having sex with Zac she had kissed Taylor today as well. She almost felt like she was back to square one. Like any progress she had made in three months with trying to cope had been erased. Wiped away as soon as her lips had met Taylor's and as soon as she had allowed Zac to pull her down on the couch. She was the same Elizabeth Barrymore who couldn't chose between the brothers.
Hearing her door open she opened her eyes, her face showing confusion. Seeing Zac come through the door with a box that was labeled Krispy Kreme she made a face. She was sure he had left and wouldn't be coming back. She was also sure he had given her his key when he came and got his stuff after they had ended.
"I thought you left," Liz said as she watched Zac walk over and put the box of doughnuts on her coffee table.
Laughing, Zac shook his head, "I wouldn't have left for good without saying goodbye," he smiled opening the box of doughnuts and taking one. "I just went to get food...er well junk food."
Feeling a bit relieved at his words Liz reached over and took a doughnut as well. She smiled seeing he had gotten her favorite. The kinds with chocolate icing and a white crème filling.
"Did you really think I would leave without saying goodbye?" Zac asked his brown eyes full of curiosity. "Especially after having sex with you."
Nodding at his question, Liz sort of felt ashamed but at least she was honest. Honesty was her only best friend these days she decided. Lies had destroyed her life so she was trying to start a new life. A life that didn't involve her lying to either Taylor or Zac.
Shaking his head at her answer Zac finished off his first doughnut and reached for another, "I don't know whether to feel offended or not," he sighed as he took a bite of the doughnut.
"You can feel offended," Liz replied as she ate some of the doughnut. She wasn't really in the mood for eating fast. Though to be honest she had never really ate as fast as Zac had anyway. Zac could eat anything in the blink of an eye. He was like a human garbage disposal. "I sort of blamed Fiona for it."
Making a face at Liz's words Zac was confused and it showed, "Why did you blame Fiona?" he asked his mouth full of food so it came out a bit muffled.
Shrugging Liz finished the doughnut and grabbed another, "Because if you had left it would have meant you changed. She's the only thing that I could think of who would change you like that," she said being honest. She still didn't know what else could ever change Zac.
"Maybe if I had changed it would have been because of you," Zac replied a little harsh.
Feeling a stinging feeling after Zac responded the way he did Liz frowned, "Me?" she asked though she was sure he was referring to her cheating. She had never taken that into account for being a reason to why he would change but she could see it being a reason now even if she didn't want to admit it to herself.
"Yeah, you," Zac nodded after finishing his second doughnut. Sitting down in the chair across from the couch he sighed. "It hurt me so damn much when you cheated on me. Yeah I knew you would always love Taylor but I guess I was naive when he came back. I thought maybe just maybe I meant more to you than having sex with him again. I guess I was wrong," he shrugged a frown playing on his lips.
Looking down as Zac talked Liz frowned feeling worse than she had originally. She knew cheating had hurt him and this was the first time since he found out that he was voicing how he felt. At least this time though he was calmer and she liked that.
"I'm sorry," Liz shrugged knowing that sorry was late but it was all she could say to him. "You do mean a lot to me though Zac and like I said before having sex with you I love you and him both and a part of me isn't sure what I want and really though what I want doesn't matter because you are both taken."
Staying silent Zac looked down, "I may have ended things with Fiona while I was gone," he sighed. "I..I couldn't go back to her. Not after being with you. I couldn't do that to her," he admitted as he chewed on his lip and looked back up.
Feeling her eyes widen Liz was shocked, "But where will you stay?" she asked finally finishing her second doughnut. She would offer for him to stay here but since she didn't know what she wanted she wasn't sure that was a good idea. She really didn't want to get his hopes up.
"With my parents," Zac shrugged as he looked at her. "Mom can never say no to me and I kind of miss her cooking," he laughed as he joked some.
Liz laughed some at his last words, "Well then, I'm sure your mom will love to know that you are only going back home for her cooking," she said as she shook her head and stuck her tongue out at him. It was such a Zac thing to say.
"I'm such a mean person, I know," Zac muttered as he stood from the chair and walked over to the couch where Liz sat. Slowly he sat down beside her and pulled her into him, "But you love me anyway, right?" he asked his nose flaring some when he asked that. It was so faint but Liz noticed it.
Laughing more she rested her head on his shoulder, "I do love you anyway," she nodded as she kissed his neck softly. "I love you no matter what," she muttered kissing his neck more. She was feeling incredibly horny again. She had heard this could happen during pregnancy though she had never expected it to be happening to her.
Zac moaned softly as his neck was kissed, "Damn it," he groaned as his eyes shut. "You're turning me on again," he breathed out.
"Good," Liz muttered as her lips slowly moved up to his and she kissed him. She was doing what she had intended to do if she was turning him on again.
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Taylor sighed as he watched Natalie laying on the bed of their hotel and rubbing her belly. Ever since returning home he had been feeling guilty for kissing Liz. He hadn't felt guilty for sleeping with her and trying to hide it from Natalie but kissing her and hiding it, he did feel guilty for.
Standing from the chair he sat in he walked over to her, "We need to talk," he said as he sat down on the bed looking at his wife. He was scared of how she would react but this needed to be done.
"What do we need to talk about?" Natalie asked as she sat up some. Her face was showing just how confused she felt.
Looking away from her and down at the flowered sheets on their bed, Taylor took a deep breath, "I kissed Liz tonight," he confessed deciding to get right to the chase. He hated beating around the bush with her.
Natalie's face fell some at Taylor's confession, "Why?" she asked as her voice cracked showing that she was hurt by what he had done.
"Because I wanted too and it felt right," Taylor shrugged hating it when he heard her voice crack. He knew he didn't love her but he didn't want her crying. He would hate himself if she cried.
Tears soon went down Natalie's cheeks after Taylor's last confession, "I see," she said reaching up and wiping them off her cheek. "D..do you love her?" she asked though her voice came off like she already knew the answer to that.
Sighing as Natalie cried, Taylor looked away and stayed silent for awhile after she asked him if he loved Liz. She sounded like she already knew the answer to that but he decided he would answer it for her anyway.
"Yes, I do love her," Taylor nodded as he looked back at her. Hopefully being honest was the right thing to do for him. He had never been honest ever when it came to things like this. When he cheated on Liz she had to practically get it out of him during the argument when she miscarried and when he had cheated on Natalie the last time she hadn't found out until she knew Zac had dumped Liz.
Standing from the bed Natalie stayed silent for awhile as she went to the closet in the room. Grabbing her suitcase she laid it on the bed and opened it, "I..I think I should leave," she said throwing her clothes in the suitcase. "I shouldn't have even came out here after you," she admitted.
Watching and hearing her Taylor frowned, "You don't have to leave Nat," he said as he shook his head. "We are having a baby together. Just because I don't love you doesn't mean I don't want a chance to be a father," he said as he ran a hand through his hair. He might not have been ready or sure if he wanted the baby but he did want to at least try being a dad.
"I know but I just need sometime," Natalie said her voice cracking as more tears came down her cheek. "I'm sorry," she said as she closed her suitcase and picked it up. "I'll call you when I get to Georgia to let you know I made it safe," she said before turning and soon leaving the room.
Sitting on the bed in silence Taylor was stunned at what had actually happened. He didn't expect Natalie to just leave like that. Shaking his head he ran a hand through his hair wondering just what this meant for him now.
Liz woke up from her nap a few hours later. She was still wrapped up in the covers but Zac was gone from beneath her and she frowned some. Getting up she reached for her clothes and put them back on.
"Zac," she called out walking around the house. Not finding him she frowned as she soon sat on the stairs. He had, had sex with her and just left. He hadn't even woken her up to tell her he was leaving. A wham bam thank you ma'am was all she was to him anymore it seemed now.
Frowning she ran a hand through her hair. She hadn't expected this from him. She had thought he was better than this but it seemed she was wrong. He had changed since they broke up obviously. She blamed Fiona for the change in him. What else could have changed him?
Standing from the stairs she walked back to her couch and pulled her legs to her chest. Closing her eyes she sighed. Besides having sex with Zac she had kissed Taylor today as well. She almost felt like she was back to square one. Like any progress she had made in three months with trying to cope had been erased. Wiped away as soon as her lips had met Taylor's and as soon as she had allowed Zac to pull her down on the couch. She was the same Elizabeth Barrymore who couldn't chose between the brothers.
Hearing her door open she opened her eyes, her face showing confusion. Seeing Zac come through the door with a box that was labeled Krispy Kreme she made a face. She was sure he had left and wouldn't be coming back. She was also sure he had given her his key when he came and got his stuff after they had ended.
"I thought you left," Liz said as she watched Zac walk over and put the box of doughnuts on her coffee table.
Laughing, Zac shook his head, "I wouldn't have left for good without saying goodbye," he smiled opening the box of doughnuts and taking one. "I just went to get food...er well junk food."
Feeling a bit relieved at his words Liz reached over and took a doughnut as well. She smiled seeing he had gotten her favorite. The kinds with chocolate icing and a white crème filling.
"Did you really think I would leave without saying goodbye?" Zac asked his brown eyes full of curiosity. "Especially after having sex with you."
Nodding at his question, Liz sort of felt ashamed but at least she was honest. Honesty was her only best friend these days she decided. Lies had destroyed her life so she was trying to start a new life. A life that didn't involve her lying to either Taylor or Zac.
Shaking his head at her answer Zac finished off his first doughnut and reached for another, "I don't know whether to feel offended or not," he sighed as he took a bite of the doughnut.
"You can feel offended," Liz replied as she ate some of the doughnut. She wasn't really in the mood for eating fast. Though to be honest she had never really ate as fast as Zac had anyway. Zac could eat anything in the blink of an eye. He was like a human garbage disposal. "I sort of blamed Fiona for it."
Making a face at Liz's words Zac was confused and it showed, "Why did you blame Fiona?" he asked his mouth full of food so it came out a bit muffled.
Shrugging Liz finished the doughnut and grabbed another, "Because if you had left it would have meant you changed. She's the only thing that I could think of who would change you like that," she said being honest. She still didn't know what else could ever change Zac.
"Maybe if I had changed it would have been because of you," Zac replied a little harsh.
Feeling a stinging feeling after Zac responded the way he did Liz frowned, "Me?" she asked though she was sure he was referring to her cheating. She had never taken that into account for being a reason to why he would change but she could see it being a reason now even if she didn't want to admit it to herself.
"Yeah, you," Zac nodded after finishing his second doughnut. Sitting down in the chair across from the couch he sighed. "It hurt me so damn much when you cheated on me. Yeah I knew you would always love Taylor but I guess I was naive when he came back. I thought maybe just maybe I meant more to you than having sex with him again. I guess I was wrong," he shrugged a frown playing on his lips.
Looking down as Zac talked Liz frowned feeling worse than she had originally. She knew cheating had hurt him and this was the first time since he found out that he was voicing how he felt. At least this time though he was calmer and she liked that.
"I'm sorry," Liz shrugged knowing that sorry was late but it was all she could say to him. "You do mean a lot to me though Zac and like I said before having sex with you I love you and him both and a part of me isn't sure what I want and really though what I want doesn't matter because you are both taken."
Staying silent Zac looked down, "I may have ended things with Fiona while I was gone," he sighed. "I..I couldn't go back to her. Not after being with you. I couldn't do that to her," he admitted as he chewed on his lip and looked back up.
Feeling her eyes widen Liz was shocked, "But where will you stay?" she asked finally finishing her second doughnut. She would offer for him to stay here but since she didn't know what she wanted she wasn't sure that was a good idea. She really didn't want to get his hopes up.
"With my parents," Zac shrugged as he looked at her. "Mom can never say no to me and I kind of miss her cooking," he laughed as he joked some.
Liz laughed some at his last words, "Well then, I'm sure your mom will love to know that you are only going back home for her cooking," she said as she shook her head and stuck her tongue out at him. It was such a Zac thing to say.
"I'm such a mean person, I know," Zac muttered as he stood from the chair and walked over to the couch where Liz sat. Slowly he sat down beside her and pulled her into him, "But you love me anyway, right?" he asked his nose flaring some when he asked that. It was so faint but Liz noticed it.
Laughing more she rested her head on his shoulder, "I do love you anyway," she nodded as she kissed his neck softly. "I love you no matter what," she muttered kissing his neck more. She was feeling incredibly horny again. She had heard this could happen during pregnancy though she had never expected it to be happening to her.
Zac moaned softly as his neck was kissed, "Damn it," he groaned as his eyes shut. "You're turning me on again," he breathed out.
"Good," Liz muttered as her lips slowly moved up to his and she kissed him. She was doing what she had intended to do if she was turning him on again.
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Taylor sighed as he watched Natalie laying on the bed of their hotel and rubbing her belly. Ever since returning home he had been feeling guilty for kissing Liz. He hadn't felt guilty for sleeping with her and trying to hide it from Natalie but kissing her and hiding it, he did feel guilty for.
Standing from the chair he sat in he walked over to her, "We need to talk," he said as he sat down on the bed looking at his wife. He was scared of how she would react but this needed to be done.
"What do we need to talk about?" Natalie asked as she sat up some. Her face was showing just how confused she felt.
Looking away from her and down at the flowered sheets on their bed, Taylor took a deep breath, "I kissed Liz tonight," he confessed deciding to get right to the chase. He hated beating around the bush with her.
Natalie's face fell some at Taylor's confession, "Why?" she asked as her voice cracked showing that she was hurt by what he had done.
"Because I wanted too and it felt right," Taylor shrugged hating it when he heard her voice crack. He knew he didn't love her but he didn't want her crying. He would hate himself if she cried.
Tears soon went down Natalie's cheeks after Taylor's last confession, "I see," she said reaching up and wiping them off her cheek. "D..do you love her?" she asked though her voice came off like she already knew the answer to that.
Sighing as Natalie cried, Taylor looked away and stayed silent for awhile after she asked him if he loved Liz. She sounded like she already knew the answer to that but he decided he would answer it for her anyway.
"Yes, I do love her," Taylor nodded as he looked back at her. Hopefully being honest was the right thing to do for him. He had never been honest ever when it came to things like this. When he cheated on Liz she had to practically get it out of him during the argument when she miscarried and when he had cheated on Natalie the last time she hadn't found out until she knew Zac had dumped Liz.
Standing from the bed Natalie stayed silent for awhile as she went to the closet in the room. Grabbing her suitcase she laid it on the bed and opened it, "I..I think I should leave," she said throwing her clothes in the suitcase. "I shouldn't have even came out here after you," she admitted.
Watching and hearing her Taylor frowned, "You don't have to leave Nat," he said as he shook his head. "We are having a baby together. Just because I don't love you doesn't mean I don't want a chance to be a father," he said as he ran a hand through his hair. He might not have been ready or sure if he wanted the baby but he did want to at least try being a dad.
"I know but I just need sometime," Natalie said her voice cracking as more tears came down her cheek. "I'm sorry," she said as she closed her suitcase and picked it up. "I'll call you when I get to Georgia to let you know I made it safe," she said before turning and soon leaving the room.
Sitting on the bed in silence Taylor was stunned at what had actually happened. He didn't expect Natalie to just leave like that. Shaking his head he ran a hand through his hair wondering just what this meant for him now.